LIFE ON STANDBY (2017)

Life On Standby

Everytime I Break

Alive

10 Weeks Of Summer

If I Stay

Don't Say You Love Me

No Air

The Night Before I Die

When Love Is Not Enough

Hope


LOVE KILLS (2014)

 

Crimson Ground

Lost

Waiting In The Wings

Crystal Ball

Bad Love

Beautiful Mistake

Silence

Free Fall

Pathways

Broken Mirror

Born In Fire

Mute

Intoxicated


LIFE ON STANDBY LYRICS

 

LIFE ON STANDBY

 

We keep turning

In neverending circles

We are caught

In complete darkness

 

Our minds are twisted

By society

Your will gets broken

A little more day by day

 

Are we born just to conform

And worth nothing more

Are we soldiers of the norm

And worth nothing more

 

We gotta break out

Break free to be ourselves

'Cause we are worth so much more

So much more

 

Our wants and needs

They stay unaccepted

Our wishes, dreams and desires

They are plain unwanted

 

Everytime that we try to break out

We are considered a flaw

A simple printing error

On a spotless piece of paper

On this oh so fucked up contract of life

 

Are we born just to conform

And worth nothing more

Are we soldiers of the norm

And worth nothing more

We gotta break out

Break free to be ourselves

'Cause we are worth so much more

So much more

 

(Don't step left, don't step right

Stand in line, don't break out)

We got a right to personality

We got a right to humanity

We got a right, we got a right

 

To be

 

No

We're not born just to conform

We're worth so much more

We're not soldiers of the norm

We're worth so much more

And if we break out

Break free to be ourselves

It's 'Cause we're worth so much more

So much more

 

And if we break out

Break free to be ourselves

It's 'Cause we're worth so much more

So much more

So much more

 

EVERYTIME I BREAK

 

Your words are like poison

Running through my veins

Trying to drive me insane

Sneaking into my head

 

Into my mind

Taking control

Into my brain

I want them to get out (to get out)

 

Everytime I risk to break

I just close my eyes and ears

Open up my heart and I sing

'Cause there's nothing left to fear

 

Oh I know exactly

what you try to do

You just want to pull me down

Want to make me feel less

than what I am

But you won't succeed

'Cause in the end

I just don't care (I don't care)

 

Everytime I risk to break

I just close my eyes and ears

Open up my heart and I sing

'Cause there's nothing left to fear

With a big smile on my face

I start to sing out loud

For everyone to hear

No I don't care

I'm free

 

The words you use

are meant to hurt

The words you say

Make me stronger each day

(Each day)

 

Yeah

Everytime I risk to break

I just close my eyes and ears

Open up my heart and I sing

'Cause there's nothing left to fear

With a big smile on my face

I start to sing out loud

For everyone to hear

No I don't care

I'm free 2x

 

No I don't care

I'm free 3x

 

ALIVE

 

Please relieve me

Please release me

 

One look in the mirror

Last night's bruises haven't had time to heal

She feels disgusted by herself

 

Like every night

She tries to paint

The pain away and the misery

Let's meet the demons of tonight

 

She keeps on dancing through the night

Her eyes closed

She's flying high

She keeps on dancing through the night

Fighting back the tears for what she's left behind

 

One look in the mirror

Overcome by regret for what she's lost

Her body's just an empty shell

 

Like every night

She pushes away

All of her pride and self-esteem

Let's meet the monsters of tonight

 

She keeps on dancing through the night

Her eyes closed

She's flying high

She keeps on dancing through the night

Fighting back the tears for what she's left behind

She keeps on dancing through the night

It might get easier with every try

She keeps on dancing through the night

It's the only way she stays alive

 

They say hush hush little one

Don't you ever tell anyone

They say hush hush little one

You're not worth it

Not worth anything

 

She keeps on dancing through the night

Her eyes closed

She's flying high

She keeps on dancing through the night

Fighting back the tears for what she's left behind

She keeps on dancing through the night

It might get easier with every try

She keeps on dancing through the night

It's the only way she stays alive 2x

 

10 WEEKS OF SUMMER

 

We were foolish

We were young

Some may even say

We were wild

 

We didn't have a single care

In this whole world

Those days seemed to last forever

But it all came to an end

 

10 weeks of summer

Oh sweet memory

Looking back

With an aching need

10 weeks of summer

They have gone by

Nothing left

But a sad lullaby

 

The sun is gone

It's getting cold

What happened to those days

When we were so close

Now we're so far apart

No I don't recognize you

I really thought this would last forever

But then it all came to an end

 

10 weeks of summer

Oh sweet memory

Looking back

With an aching need

10 weeks of summer

They have gone by

Nothing left

But a sad lullaby

 

We had the time of our lives

Dancing through those summernights

We thought it would last forever

But then it all fell apart

 

10 weeks of summer

Oh sweet memory

Looking back

With an aching need

10 weeks of summer

They have gone by

Nothing left

But a sad lullaby 2x

 

IF I STAY

 

Another day has come

I open up my eyes

I gotta get up

Gotta face it all again

 

There may be sadness in my eyes

But you won't see the truth

I keep it hidden deep inside

My dark secret

 

Why can't I fly

To another place (another place)

Just get away

Why can't I fly

And just let go (just let go)

Of everything that's holding me down

 

I'm not allowed to run

I'm not allowed to fail

But I'll be breaking down

I'm breaking if I stay

I'm trying to be brave

hold it together every day

And so I'm slowly fading

Slowly fading away

 

You may think you know

Who I really am

But this is just a mask I wore for far too long

 

At times I don't even know

I dont recognize myself

I can't remember who and what I really am

 

Why can't I fly

To another place (another place)

Just get away

Why can't I fly

 

And just let go (just let go)

Of everything that's holding me down

 

I'm not allowed to run

I'm not allowed to fail

But I'll be breaking down

I'm breaking if I stay

I'm trying to be brave

hold it together every day

And so I'm slowly fading

Slowly fading away

 

Fly away 2x

 

Why can't I fly

To another place (another place)

Just get away

Why can't I fly

And just let go (just let go)

Of everything that's holding me down

 

I'm not allowed to run

I'm not allowed to fail

But I'll be breaking down

I'm breaking if I stay

I'm trying to be brave

hold it together every day

And so I'm slowly fading

Slowly fading away 2x

 

I want to fly away

Just fly away

Just fly away

I want to fly away

 

DON'T SAY YOU LOVE ME

 

A promise a promise

That's what I thought

you had given to me

some time ago

 

Empty words such empty words

That's what they were

With pain I had to see

 

How could you just leave me behind

How could you turn your back on me

So easily

 

You won't hear me crying

'Cause I only do so at night

You won't see how I'm suffering

'Cause I have to much pride

 

Times has passed yes time has passed

We have both changed

It never mattered to me

 

A lifetime forever

Together we'd grow old

Apparently just a dream

 

How could you just give up on us

How could you just throw it away

So easily

 

You won't hear me crying

'Cause I only do so at night

You won't see how I'm suffering

'Cause I have to much pride

You won't know that I'm drowning

Choked by my own tears

You won't ever notice me dying

A little more each day

 

Always keep in mind

That I won't forget

I won't forget

Always keep in mind

That I can't forgive

I can't forgive

What you did to me

 

You won't hear me crying

'Cause I only do so at night

You won't see how I'm suffering

'Cause I have to much pride

You won't know that I'm drowning

Choked by my own tears

You won't ever notice me dying

A little more each day

 

NO AIR

 

All my life you wanted me

To be somebody else

Someone that I just couldn't be

 

Couldn't you see I tried real hard

But I failed every single time

I felt miserably

 

I can't breathe

There's no air

No I can't breathe

 

Why can't you see

What I'm wanting

Why can't you see

What I'm needing

Why can't you feel

What I'm craving

All of my life

All my life I felt out of place

 

I just didn't belong

I felt awkard and wrong

 

No I can't breathe

There's no air

No I can't breathe

 

Why can't you see

What I'm wanting

Why can't you see

What I'm needing

Why can't you feel

What I'm craving

All of my life

 

All of my life 3x

 

No I can't breathe

There's no air

I can't breathe

 

Why can't you see

What I'm wanting

Why can't you see

What I'm needing

Why can't you feel

What I'm craving

All of my life

All of my life

Why can't you feel

What I'm craving

All of my life

All of my life

All of my, all of my life

 

THE NIGHT BEFORE I DIE

 

Tiny voices in my head

Talking to me

All those strangers I don't know

They tell me they're family

My mind is clouded I can't see

Where has the sun gone

 

And I keep asking, asking myself

Every day

And I keep asking, asking myself

Every day

 

Will you stay by my side

And will you still be there

when it's time to fly

 

I am fading, I am fading

I'm a ghost

I am fading, I am fading

It is time to go

But I, I am so scared

'Cause I, I don't wanna be alone

 

Oh what happens to me,

Happens to me

I can't seem to take control

 

My body's losing

Mind is fading

And I just wanna know

 

Will you stay by my side

And will you still be there

the day I die

 

I am fading, I am fading

I'm a ghost

I am fading, I am fading

It is time to go

But I, I am so scared

'Cause I, I don't wanna be alone 2x

 

WHEN LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH

 

So many brokenhearted people

Traveling through this world

They all have a darker side

A black past they try to hide

 

Each and everyone

Has his own story

Each and everyone

Just wants to know

Wants to know

 

Is simple love enough

To make it through this time

Is this love strong enough

To fight against the odds

 

Now each and every single time

They get up and forget the pain

But each and everytime it gets harder

to leave it all behind

 

Is simple love enough

To make it through this time

Is this love strong enough

To fight against the odds

 

Sometimes there's no common ground

To be found

Sometimes there's no compromise

To be found (to be found)

 

We just want to know

Want know

 

Is simple love enough

To make it through this time

Is this love strong enough

To fight against the odds 2x

 

To fight against the odds (3x)

(You gotta get up, fight the pain

'Cause it might be worth it this time)

 

HOPE

 

You feel so cold

So cold and dark inside

 

You feel so weak

Weak and lost tonight

 

In a constant fight

Against the darkest night

You still believe

With an aching need

 

In a constant fight

There's a spark of light

You still believe

With an aching need

 

All you need is hope

It's what you seek

All you need is hope

It's what makes you live

 

Faith and aim

Keep you going

Love and trust

Keep you from breaking

From breaking

 

All you need is hope

It's what you seek

All you need is hope

It's what makes you live

 

Let it raise you up

Let it tear you down

Let it show you skies

Let it tell you lies

 

Let it raise you up

Let it tear you down

Just shut your eyes, shut your eyes

you're losing ground, losing ground

 

Let it show you skies

Let it tell you lies

Just shut your eyes, shut your eyes

you're falling down, you're falling

 

Let it raise you up

Let it tear you down

Just shut your eyes, shut your eyes

you're falling down, falling down

 

Let it raise you up

Let it tear you down

Just shut your eyes, shut your eyes

you're losing ground, losing ground

 


LOVE KILLS LYRICS

 

Crimson Ground

 

[Verse 1:]

Waking up to a nightmare

Choked by blood and dust

Can you remember all the reasons

For all of this despair

 

You were told to fight and be brave

Big and empty promises were made

But from the beginning you were the one

This fall to take

 

Our world is drowning

In a sea of tears

Our youth is wasted away

 

[Chorus:]

So lay your weapons down

Put your arms away

There will be no more blood

No no more blood today (2x)

 

[Verse 2:]

Were you aware of what you’d have to do

Of the sacrifices you’d make

Losing your innocence of mind

By taking another one’s life away

 

Causing death and pain is such a disgrace

soon you’ll notice your mistake

but then all is gone and done

and you’ll see that it’s too late

 

Our world is drowning

In a sea of tears

Our youth is wasted away

 

[Chorus:] 2x

 

[Bridge:]

Haunted by your memories

By choices you made and things you did

How can you still face yourself

Your past keeps dragging you deep down

Everyday, everyday, with no mercy

 

Our world is drowning

In a sea of tears

Our youth is wasted away

 

No blood (4x)

 

No more blood for just a single day

Put your arms away

There will be no more blood

No no more blood today

 

[Chorus:]

 

Lost

 

[Verse 1:]

She closes her eyes

Let's go of her mind

Giving in to this sweet sensation

one last time

 

Whispered vows to her ear

No one's supposed to hear

She's giving in to those voices

That tell her to leave this world behind

 

[Chorus:]

Oh my god what she's done

Like a fallen angel

Broken wings and alone

Crashing to the earth

 

But how could this be treason

If it makes her feel so fine

But how could this be forbidden

If it makes her feel alright

 

[Verse 2:]

She closes her eyes

Let's go with one last sigh

Taking in this perfect moment

shooting herself to the sky

 

Sending one last kiss

nothing left to miss

She's a lost and twisted mind

All regrets are left behind

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

Just like an angel

wings spread wide

Just like a fallen angel

She takes this flight

 

Just like an angel

wings spread wide

Just like a fallen angel

She takes this flight up high

 

Send her an angel

Send her a sign

Send her an angel

Come on send her a goodbye

 

[Chorus:]

Just like a falling angel

 

Waiting In The Wings

 

[Verse 1:]

Feel the pressure rising

Every single day

Feel the anger boiling

Underneath the surface

Your life is unbearable

 

[Chorus:]

Maybe it's time to break free

Of the chains that they call life

Maybe it's time to break free

Wake up it's your turn to shine

What are you waiting for

(maybe it’s time to meet faith)

Break free and let go

Just break free and let go

What are you waiting for

 

[Verse 2:]

You took it in everyday

Without a single word

They didn't give a second thought

About how you felt

Your life got unbearable

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

You stood back for much too long

Now look at you

You're a ghost of your former self

Your life got unbearable

 

[Chorus:] 2x

 

Crystal Ball

 

[Verse 1:]

I wanna live in a fairytale

Somewhere I feel safe

I wanna live in another place too far to

Too far to

Too far to find, far to find

Where life is sweet

No need to hide

 

[Chorus:]

Crystal ball oh my crystal ball

Can't you hear my pleas

Crystal ball oh crystal ball

I'm begging you

Don't make me see

My eyes wide open

I wanna scream

Oh please just let me dream

 

[Verse 2:]

I wanna live in a fairytale

No past of regrets

I wanna live in another place

Without judgment or resentment

Without sorrow without hate

Without feeling sorry for yourself

A world of dreams

I'm free to be myself

 

[Chorus:]

I just wanna scream

 

[Bridge:]

 

Eyes wide open....

Oh my crystal ball

Can't you hear me

And take me away to another place

 

[Chorus:]

 

(Just let me dream, let me dream)

 

[Chorus:]

let me dream, let me dream

 

Bad Love

 

[Verse 1:]

He chose the dark path tonight

Looking too deeply in his glass again

She tried to blow it all away

With some smoke and coke again

 

They try to explain it

with endless love

Losing control and being beat up

There will be blood shed tonight

Why does this happen

again and again

 

[Chorus:]

Please forgive me

For what I've done to you

Please believe me

If I tell that I still love you

These are the words they cried at night

Words they said and heard too many times

Please forgive me

that I let it all happen again

 

[Verse 2:]

She's running away

But she'll be coming back

A story rewritten every single day

 

Her battered face

His eyes shining with tears

Making mad love

And living a lie

 

Empty promises

Too many to count

Making excuses

Again and again

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

Now look at us

We are two lost souls

Just look at us

We can't seem to get away

Look at us

We are broken ones

Just look at us

We can't seem to get away

 

We can't get away 4x

 

[Chorus:]

 

Beautiful Mistake

 

[Verse 1:]

I remember a time

We both believed

In happy endings happy everafter

 

Then both of us

Had to admit

That we had to let go of eachother

 

Many words were spoken

And promises broken

Nothing left to say

 

[Chorus:]

It's you and I

For one last night

Giving in to what is just a lie

It's you and I

For one last time

Giving in to what is just a lie

 

[Verse 2:]

Our bitter tears

Have long since dried

We couldn't fulfill each other's needs

 

Don't think about the past

Don't think about tomorrow (tomorrow)

Just make this one and only moment count

 

Many words were spoken

And promises broken

Nothing left to say

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

No regrets

And no more tears

No disillusions

 

No more suppressed anger

Leaving you empty and broken

And destroyed in despair

We were turning in a vicious circle

 

Trying to hold on to something long since broken

Sometimes simple love is just not enough

And then it's time to say goodbye

To say goodbye

To say goodbye

 

Many words were spoken

And promises broken

Nothing left to say

 

[Chorus:]

 

It's you and I

(You and I)

Giving in to what is just a lie (2x)

It's you and I

(You and I)

It is time to say our last goodbye

 

Silence

 

[Verse 1:]

Your silence is killing me

It’s making me bleed

From the inside

Your silence

Is freezing me

I’m feeling cold and numb

Inside

 

When you look at me

Just like this

It makes me feel small and lost

All over again

 

[Chorus:]

I am begging you

Please just let me in

Your silence is burning deep

It is just worse than any words could be

 

[Verse 2:]

Your silence is breaking me

I’m feeling hollow and torn

Inside

 

When you look at me

Just like this

It makes me feel small and lost

All over again

 

[Chorus:]

 

Just let me in (2x)

I am pleading

Break your silence

I want you to look at me

I’m begging you, I’m begging you

 

[Chorus:]

 

Hey, hey, hey (3x)

 

Your silence is killing

It’s tearing me apart

Your silence is breaking me

I’m feeling small and lost

Over and over again

 

Free Fall

 

[Verse 1:]

Sleepless nights

Pictures keeping me awake

Endless hours

I toss and turn and spin around

 

Thinking useless thoughts

I just try to breathe

Try to breathe so deeply

But I'm suffocating (suffocating)

 

[Chorus:]

See me falling

Why can't you come for me

See me falling

Why don't you catch me now

 

See my dying dying

I try to breathe, try to free myself

 

[Verse 2:]

I'm feeling trapped

In a nightmare every single day

It never seems to stop

Even though I'm wide awake

 

Feeling lost and helpless

I just try to breathe

Try to breathe so deeply

But I'm suffocating (suffocating)

 

[Chorus:]

 

try to free myself

 

[Bridge:]

I tried to reach for you

but you were too far away

one last look

one last touch

we let go

and I just fall

 

[Chorus:] 2x

 

(I’m falling, I’m falling, I’m falling so deep down)2x

 

Pathways

 

[Verse 1:]

My feet are getting sore

walking the many different ways

Life has sought out for me

(out for me)

Over stony pavements

Through the stormy seas

I got lost along the way

But I found back again

 

[Chorus:]

And I'll just keep on running

No matter how long it takes

'Cause I just know that

I know that there's someplace

Someplace

 

[Verse 2:]

Will I ever get there

Is there a point and goal to it all

Maybe I will never know

(Never know)

 

Over the highest mountains

Through the deepest caves

I got lost along the way

But I found back again

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

I know that there's someplace

I guess that there's someplace

Meant for me

But that place isn’t next to you

 

I know that there's someplace

I guess that there's someplace

Meant for me

 

[Chorus:] 2x

 

I know that there's someplace

I guess that there's someplace

 

Broken Mirror

 

[Verse 1:]

Just like a blank sheet of paper

Untouched so untouchable

Always keeping to yourself

Never really moved at all

 

Always giving us a cold stare

Walking with your head up high

Never in need of someone else

You seem like such a tough guy

 

So why this sadness in your eyes

 

[Chorus:]

Why don't you look in the mirror

And face the truth

That lies beneath it all

 

[Verse 2:]

Always keeping a safe distance

Never getting in too close

Never look below the surface

That's the way you chose

Always keeping a big smile

Fixed onto your face

But it never reaches your eyes

It's a real damn shame

 

So why this darkness in your mind

 

[Chorus:]

Why don't you look in the mirror

And face the truth

That lies beneath it all

Why don't you look in the mirror

And shed your mask

Just to face just who you are

 

[Bridge:]

What do you fear

Living in denial

Why are you scared

Living in denial

You gotta fight

This storm raging on

 

Will you keep running on (4x)

All your life

 

[Chorus:]

Why don't you look in the mirror

And face the truth

That lies beneath it all

Why don't you look in the mirror

Don't you look in the mirror

Don't you look in the mirror

Don't you look in the mirror

 

Born In Fire

 

[Verse 1:]

You live in a world so dark

Too dark to see

You are so filled with hate and envy

 

You are driven by jealousy

Driven by selfish need

There’s just dishonesty and an never ending greed

 

There was a time

She bruised easier

You can still see the scars you left behind

There was a time

When you still could make her cry

All her tears have dried

But it’s over now

It’s over here and now

 

[Chorus:]

Even though you tried to bring her down

She got up every time

Looking straight into your deceiving eyes

Now she’s ready for the fight

Walking through fire, fire

She is reborn

And shining brighter, brighter

Than ever before

 

[Verse 2:]

Were you ever able to feel

The real thing they call love

Everyday you crushed her with your wants and needs

You could never let her go

Just let her go and grow

You were too scared that she’d end up seeing the real you

 

There was a time

When she still needed you

There was a time

But that’s over here and now

 

[Chorus:]

 

Than ever before (2x)

She’s walking through fire, fire, fire, fire, fire, fire, fire

She’s shining brighter, brighter, brighter, brighter, brighter, brighter, brighter,

Than ever before

 

Mute

 

[Verse 1:]

I don't recognize myself

When I look in a mirror today

There's a stranger with soulless eyes

Staring back at me

 

The day you left you took everything

Like a demon sucking me out

Leaving me empty and broken with nothing

With nothing left behind

And you can't hear my silent cries

 

[Chorus:]

I want you to stay with me

I need you to stay with me

Or I'm just

falling falling falling falling so deep

I want you to stay with me

 

[Verse 2:]

I'm standing naked in the rain

But I don't feel a thing

I'm a lost and lonely ghost

Slowly wasting away

 

The day you left you ripped my heart out

Leaving behind an aching wound

Leaving me empty and broken with nothing

With nothing left behind

And you can't hear my silent cries

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

It's too late I'm drowning

And I suffocate

It's too late I'm fading

And I drift away

and you can't hear my silent cries

 

[Chorus:] 2x

 

Intoxicated

 

[Verse 1:]

So tired

What happened to me

I just can’t open my eyes

I just feel this numbness

Creeping up inside

 

What did you do to me

I can’t seem to care (I can’t seem to care)

I’m feeling drugged by you

Intoxicated

 

[Chorus:]

Like a bird with broken wings

I will never touch the sky

Never again I’ll be able to fly

But I can not seem to cry

Like a bird with broken wings

Now I’m standing by my own side

And I have to see myself die

But still I can not seem to cry

 

[Verse 2:]

All this darkness

Has surrounded me

For such a long time

I couldn’t see the light

Put up without a fight

 

What did you do to me

I can’t seem to care (I can’t seem to care)

I’m feeling drugged by you

Intoxicated

 

[Chorus:]

 

[Bridge:]

I can’t breath, I can’t move, I can’t feel

I’ve lost all control

What did you, do to me

did you take my one and only soul

 

I gotta find release (I gotta find release)

I gotta resurface and just breathe

(resurface and breathe)

I wanna get out of this kind of crazy love

That keeps breaking me into pieces

But I can’t do this on my own

You gotta help me out (help me out)

I’m begging you to let me go and set me free

‘cause I wanna touch the sky

Yes I wanna touch the sky